im so afraid right now

im afraid of the power of my own body

against me

im afraid of time and of falling sleep

but im more afraid of waiting

am i afraid of living?

cause all my life just feels like dying

and i think i just can’t

i don’t wanna play cards with myself another night

keep on gambling

chasing some light that goes into the darkness with every step

i use to have love here

for myself

and i really love you all

i do

but its getting cold here

just before christmas

i wish it could be different

i guess i should be stronger

but right now im just weak

and afraid

and there is dark

and it seems i just can’t wait

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all i really want is

to stop the night

itself

don’t even reconigse

myself when i

lifting this lights

upon the sky where

flies the ocean

and the wind brings

me her smell

i need pause

between the ends

but i only find

this darkness

nobody know the

words of silence

we just stay in

the shadow